Category: testimony

Love the Unlovable

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None of us has difficulty loving the people who are always pleasant, smiling and just plain lovable. Unfortunately, my experience has been (and probably yours, too) that the majority of people are like Grumpy Cat, just waiting to pounce on the next thing I say that they can disagree with. But you know what? I am called to love them anyway. Love is a choice, not one where you get to pick and choose who will benefit from your love, but one where you are supposed to choose to love everyone. All of us has at least one difficult person in their lives, the one that you make yourself spend time with, knowing that the best you can hope for is not to get into a verbal sparring match that will destroy our testimony for Jesus. I personally have relatives that cause my blood pressure to rise and my body to exhibit symptoms of high stress whenever I am around them. But rather than avoid them, I put on my armor of God and enter the battlefield, knowing that the words I say need to speak life and love into their hearts that have been hardened.

I am not the judge and jury of their actions, words or even their attitudes. I am their friend, family member and the one that they judge first when they see me start to waiver a little in my faith walk. They are not my encouragers, but they are the ones who need my encouragement. If I cannot love them with the love of Jesus, then I am the one who has failed them. Love is sometimes hard and often challenging, especially if you go into a situation with a preconceived idea of how everything will play out. I have learned through experience to hope for the best but pray as if the worst might happen so I am prepared to give the answer they need to hear. Love is telling the truth and loving the other person when they refuse to hear it. Love is accepting the barbs of rejection and knowing that it isn’t really me that they are rejecting but the Lord. Love is unconditional, not expecting anything but ready to give everything. Love is…you tell me. What is love to you?

Created to Love God

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The Most Important Thing (YouVersion Daily Refresh)

When Jesus was asked by the religious leaders what the most important command was, He quoted Deuteronomy 6:5. This verse contains one of the most important commands in all of Scripture.

The starting point for all of our lives is wrapped up in loving God. We were created to love God and have a relationship with Him. This relationship means that we were also made to be loved by God as well.

Amidst everything that you have to do in life, the most important thing is that you love God with everything that you are. If we become successful in life but do not love God, we’ve missed the most important thing.

God instructed the Israelites in Deuteronomy to constantly keep this command in their hearts and minds. They made physical reminders to help them remember to love God in everything they did. They taught this command to their children as the foundation of all other commands in Scripture.

Take some time to consider your life as well. Is loving God the primary motivation? Spend some time thinking about how good and merciful God has been in your life. Maybe create a physical reminder that you will see everyday to help focus your thoughts and heart on loving God.

Remember that God loves you more than you could ever imagine. The best motivation to love God is to constantly remember how much He loves us first.

My Thoughts

I grew up in a home in which I was not shown a lot of love, so when I found out that the God of the entire Universe loves me, specifically me, just the way He made me, I was overwhelmed. I remember that I cried, I praised, I cried more and then I sat silently and just soaked in all of that love that I had been missing.

The really good news is that God’s love is not fickle. It doesn’t depend on who I am or what I have done for Him. It just depends on His character. He is love and He desires to teach me how to love and be loved. I don’t have to get good grades, excel in all I do and shout to the heavens, “Hey, God, are you seeing this?” He sees me all the time and loves me just as I am.

In return for His devotion, God only wants me to love Him in the same way that He loves me, wholeheartedly and unashamedly. I can be quiet about my love for God or I can be loud. The way I love isn’t as important as the fact that I love Him with everything in me. I want to please Him, not because His displeasure would cause Him to withdraw from me, but because He shows me more every day how to love. The thing missing from my childhood has become the center of all of my adult life. I am loved, always and forever, by the God who accepts me just the way I am.

Favorite Hymns: Spotlight on “It Is Well With My Soul” Lyrics by Horatio Gates Spafford, Music by Phillip Bliss

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The story behind this hymn may be familiar to you. I heard it once many years ago and had to look it up to remind myself of what happened to inspire such a heartfelt song. Here is where you can find the story:

The Story Behind the Hymn

I have sung this song for years, especially when times are hard for me. The last month has been a real trial with my health. Hospitalized twice, once for a bacterial infection and the second time for blood pressure so high that I was in danger of having another stroke. Those incidents were closely followed by bronchitis and a secondary lung infection. I have been taking so many medicines that I had to write them down to make sure I took them as prescribed. One evening, as I was exhausted from coughing and lack of sleep, God reminded me of this song. No matter what is happening in my body, “it is well with my soul.” And that is what truly matters.

Here are the lyrics:

It Is Well With My Soul – Lyrics

When peace like a river, attendeth my way,
When sorrows like sea billows roll;
Whatever my lot, Thou hast taught me to say
It is well, it is well, with my soul.

It is well, (it is well),
With my soul, (with my soul)
It is well, it is well, with my soul.

Though Satan should buffet, though trials should come,
Let this blest assurance control,
That Christ has regarded my helpless estate,
And hath shed His own blood for my soul.

It is well, (it is well),
With my soul, (with my soul)
It is well, it is well, with my soul.

My sin, oh, the bliss of this glorious thought!
My sin, not in part but the whole,
Is nailed to the cross, and I bear it no more,
Praise the Lord, praise the Lord, O my soul!

It is well, (it is well),
With my soul, (with my soul)
It is well, it is well, with my soul.

For me, be it Christ, be it Christ hence to live:
If Jordan above me shall roll,
No pang shall be mine, for in death as in life,
Thou wilt whisper Thy peace to my soul.

It is well, (it is well),
With my soul, (with my soul)
It is well, it is well, with my soul.

But Lord, ’tis for Thee, for Thy coming we wait,
The sky, not the grave, is our goal;
Oh, trump of the angel! Oh, voice of the Lord!
Blessed hope, blessed rest of my soul.

It is well, (it is well),
With my soul, (with my soul)
It is well, it is well, with my soul.

And Lord, haste the day when the faith shall be sight,
The clouds be rolled back as a scroll;
The trump shall resound, and the Lord shall descend,
A song in the night, oh my soul!

It is well, (it is well),
With my soul, (with my soul)
It is well, it is well, with my soul.

Note that the bold print was added by me to the verses that mean most to me. What verse(s) resonate with you today?

(From Lyrics, “It Is Well with my Soul”)

And now the hymn for you to enjoy, or at least part of it.

“It Is Well With My Soul” by Audrey Assad

An Armor-Bearer

On By vickleaIn Admonition, Scripture, testimony4 Comments

My devotional today included a verse that really made me think. What am I actually doing for the Lord? I am not an outspoken preacher or a missionary going to foreign lands. Rather, I am an armor-bearer, helping along those who are the leaders, those who are doing the actual work but who need my support.

Jonathan had an armor bearer, one who encouraged him and told him that he was with him in all that he set out to do. That is what I see as my responsibility. I am an encourager for those who are doing, a background cheering squad who prays and wants only the best for those whom God is sending. I am old and unable to travel or go, but I can stay and pray. I can send financial resources when God prods me to do so. I may not be the go-er and the do-er, but I am the one who helps to carry the burden so that the mission can be accomplished. It’s not a job that carries a lot of kudos or recognition, but that is not what I am here for. I am here to do the best I can until God calls me home, so I am content to be an armor-bearer.

As you go through your day, think of all the ways you can encourage others who are facing a day of being in the world and having to face persecution or ridicule, battles that we may no longer be a part of because of life’s circumstances. Pray for them, the friends who are still working every day, still bearing their cross every day and showing Jesus to a lost and dying world.

It’s not that I don’t still represent Jesus when I go out and about. Of course, I do! I just don’t go out much anymore. But the nurses and doctors I see need to see a positive attitude and a smiling face as much as anyone else. So do the people in the check out lines and anyone else I come across that God encourages me to encourage them. I am an armor bearer, not the one on the front lines, but the one backing them up and sowing little seeds so the harvest can eventually be produced.

Paul had multiple armor bearers and thanked them in his many letters, reminding other believers that he had supporters that also needed support.

As an armor bearer, I can stand in the gap and pray and I can be the best encourager possible. My words mean something to someone somewhere. I hope you will all take the responsibility of being an armor-bearer seriously. The work of the kingdom depends on each of us.

Be Aware

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The Presence of God (YouVersion Daily Refresh)

The writer of Psalm 27 is intentionally focusing on one of the most important aspects of our spiritual life. Throughout Scripture, we learn about the importance of the presence of God. 

It is in the presence of God that we find strength and hope (Psalm 27:1). It’s also in God’s presence that our enemies lose their power over us (Psalm 27:2-3).

In Psalm 27:4 the writer of the Psalm expresses his desire to dwell within the house of the Lord, to gaze upon God’s beauty and be in His presence in the temple. In the Old Testament, the presence of God was primarily within the temple. But through spending time with God, the Psalmist found hope and restoration for his soul.

Thanks to Jesus, God’s presence is no longer confined to the temple. His presence is now available to us through the Holy Spirit who dwells within believers. We now have access to God’s presence at any time.

Just like the writer of the Psalm desired to dwell within God’s presence, we also should desire to be with God as much as possible. It is in God’s presence that we find hope, joy, beauty, and the restoration of our weary souls.

It is important that we spend time with God each and every day. We can do this through regularly reading Scripture and reflecting on what we read. We can also spend time in prayer, talking to God about what is happening in our life. Another way to spend time in God’s presence is to simply be aware that He is with you through your daily tasks each day.

My Thoughts

To be honest, I used to go through my days vaguely aware that God was walking with me throughout the day. These days, as my health concerns increase and my days and night are all mixed up from lack of sleep, I am constantly aware that God is with me. He is with me when I awaken in the morning and my first thought is to thank Him for giving me some rest. He is with me as I count out the meds, use my nebulizer and cough my way through another day. I keep thanking God for each breath He has given me.

Last night I got to do an online chat with our daughter and grandchildren. What a blessing to see their smiling faces and to hear their voices! I could see God working in each of their lives and I felt so peaceful as I listened and participated in the celebration of Tyler’s birthday.

There are so many things that I have to be thankful for, but the one that stands out is that God is right there beside me. He knows my frustration at not being able to attend church in person since I have to stay near meds that help me breathe. He has been wrapping me in warm hugs of encouragement and love. I don’t like not being able to go out but I do like feeling God’s presence so close to me that I whisper His name and can almost audibly hear Him say, “I am right here.”

God is good, all the time. He is present, all the time. Sometimes we are more aware of His nearness, just when we need to feel His closeness to us, He shows us. I don’t know how to explain it other than the peace and calm that comes when it is totally unexpected, like a wonderful surprise that you knew was coming but you didn’t know when it would arrive. The expectation of God’s presence is awe-inspiring, but the awareness of His being there all along is nothing short of glorious!

Asking for Wisdom

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Wisdom for Life (YouVersion Daily Refresh)

Wisdom is a key aspect of maturity. We often think of growing into maturity as we get older and gain more knowledge, but growing mature in wisdom transcends age. Wisdom grows when we learn to apply our knowledge to everyday choices and situations.

James, the brother of Jesus and writer of the book of James, talks about the process of growing in spiritual maturity in James 1:1-5. He tells us that anybody who seeks wisdom should simply ask God for it, and God will give it generously to anyone who asks.

Growing in spiritual wisdom happens when we use our knowledge of God, the world, and ourselves, to make right decisions about how we should act, live, and talk as Christians. It’s as we get to know God better that we grow in His wisdom and are equipped with the knowledge we need to live abundant lives that honor Him. In this way, wisdom comes from our relationship with God.

Nobody needs to lack wisdom because God offers it freely through a relationship with Him. As we seek Him and His wisdom, He gives us opportunities to practice it and grow in our trust in Him. And as we trust Him with our choices, we begin to see wisdom flourish in our lives.

So what will you do to cultivate wisdom in your life? The first step is to ask God for help. When you humbly come to God and admit your need for Him, He will generously give you all the wisdom you need.

My Thoughts

Growing up, I cultivated a lot of knowledge. This was mostly due to a demanding mother who insisted that I had a higher than average IQ (she had each of us tested) so she demanded absolute perfection from me. A “B” on a test brought severe consequences, so I quickly learned to apply myself to receive all “A’s” at the expense of friendships and acceptance by my peers. They came to me for help with school work but not real relationships. Coupled with my health problems with asthma, I was mostly a lonely child. Attending college didn’t help a lot since I was still mostly a loner, but I applied myself to do well there, too. Getting a “C” in my first math class there almost destroyed me, but I persevered and accepted that I was not as smart in all subjects as my mom insisted I was. When I was inducted into Phi Beta Kappa my senior year, I was understandably proud but also bewildered about how I got there, since it was supposed to be an organization for well-rounded students and all I did well was study. Or at least that is what I thought of myself. Looking back, I realize that in my quest to do well in college, I had taken on jobs, leadership positions (a junior counselor to freshmen and the president of the Spanish House among others) but I didn’t consider them activities but responsibilities to help others. Anyway, I graduated from college and went on to become a teacher.

It was in my first year away from home in a small apartment in Smithfield, Virginia, that I encountered someone who told me all about Jesus. I became a Christian and started seeking more than knowledge. I wanted wisdom from God and found it in His Word and in talking with other like-minded believers.

I discovered that wisdom is God’s gift to help us know when to speak, when to be silent, what to say in various situations and to always be aware that we are representing God. That is a very simplistic definition but it is one that I have tried to cultivate. Wisdom has helped me to deal with a non-believing family member who scoffs at my beliefs, particularly since I have had multiple health issues. How can a God who loves me watch me have a debilitating stroke or struggle to breathe with my asthmatic condition? My reply comes from the wisdom of knowing and walking with God. He didn’t cause my problems but He does walk with me through them. Wisdom urges me to be silent when I see others struggling with the responsibility of a special needs child. My book knowledge says that there is a better way, but my wisdom says to pray and be silent and let God show them the way. You see, wisdom is not always the loudest voice. In fact, it is rarely accompanied by trumpets sounding and the announcement that I alone have all the answers. Rather, it is a still small voice speaking in my ear and telling me what to say, when to say it or just to be quiet because God is handling things and doesn’t need my help.

Keep Practicing

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Daily Refresh, YouVersion Bible App, 3-07-25

When someone is training for a job—any job—they must eventually make the shift from studying to practicing.

The apostle Paul knew how important such a transition was, which is why—even while confined to a Roman prison—he recorded the following words for the believers in Philippi, Greece:

“Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.”
‭‭Philippians‬ ‭4:9‬ ‭NIV‬‬‬‬

Paul had taught them. Paul had trained them. Paul had loved them. And that’s why, from the isolation of a jail cell, Paul empowered them to live out what they’d learned.

Jesus, too, was passionate about His followers not just trying to look good or to sound good, but to do good—with a heart that genuinely wanted to glorify God. James, the half brother of Jesus, also wrote about not just listening to the Word, but doing what it says.

But be doers of the word, and not hearers only, deceiving yourselves. For if anyone is a hearer of the word and not a doer, he is like a man who looks intently at his natural face in a mirror. For he looks at himself and goes away and at once forgets what he was like. 
James 1:22-24 ESV

It’s one thing to know about something, but it’s an entirely different thing to put that knowledge into practice. 

The peace of God is a gift that He gives us. It’s something we experience as we draw near to Him by living in a way that honors Him. If we know His will but don’t do anything about it—that shows that we don’t really want to honor God. But if we do His will, then our actions illustrate that our identity is rooted in Christ. And our closeness to Christ allows us to experience His peace. 

Doing the will of God—not just learning about the will of God—unleashes the peace of God. 

So today, study what Paul taught and modeled (which is ultimately what Jesus taught and modeled). And then, ask yourself: “What is God teaching me about Himself, myself, and other people? How can I apply His teachings to my life?”

My Thoughts

I was never one to practice sports since I have had asthma my entire life. So, I didn’t practice any kind of ball or cycling or anything in order to perfect it. However, I did practice teaching for over thirty years. I still say I was practicing at my profession because I kept learning new ways to reach students. I saw through the years that not two students were exactly the same and all of them had unique strengths that I had to discover and help them to use wisely.

When I started my teaching career, there was a part of it called “practice teaching” or “student teaching.” In this part of my college program, I was supposed to be under the mentorship of an experienced teacher who would show me through her skills and techniques how to be a good, effective teacher. I had finished all of my coursework early and was eager to start my new career, so I signed up to do my student teaching during summer school in northern Virginia. The only problem with that scenario is that instead of having a mentor, the school system put me by myself into the classroom, no guidance, no hand-holding, none of what was supposed to be happening. My “mentor” was teaching French down the hall and I was alone teaching Spanish to first year students who had failed the class during the regular school year but were somehow supposed to learn enough to pass a year’s worth of work in a few months. I learned by doing, that’s for sure! My college professor/supervisor came to speak with me regularly. He was normally supposed to come every few weeks but he was arriving several times a week, knowing that I was on my own and might be having some problems. I don’t recall having a lot of difficulty, just a lot of questions that by the time we sat down to talk about what was going on, I was too overwhelmed to ask anything. I got stellar reviews and a great grade on my student teaching performance and the school system got a free summer school teacher. This is not what practice teaching is supposed to be like, and I don’t recommend it, but I did survive it.

Having said all that, I want to make sure you understand that you can learn by jumping headlong into things without practicing with someone wiser and more knowledgeable, but I don’t suggest it. There were a lot of gaps I found missing as I got into the profession itself, gaps that should have been covered when I was practicing. God doesn’t want us to have gaps in our walk with Jesus. He wants us to know exactly the road He wants us on and how to travel it, by reading His Word and following His example. Watch, listen and learn. Then do…that is what practice is. And when you get really good at it, you can then teach others what you have learned by being a good Christian example for them to follow.

You Version Daily Refresh and Answered Prayers

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A Peace that Never Leaves You

Think about a time when you were worried. How did you deal with it? Maybe you tried to distract yourself, or perhaps you let your mind race through your problems. It’s natural to want to respond to our worries this way, but God shows us a better way to respond. 

Not long before Jesus went to the cross, He told His disciples that He would be leaving them. Worried about experiencing life without Him, the disciples wanted answers. But instead of giving them the response they hoped for, Jesus told His disciples to be at peace and not let their hearts be troubled. 

Imagine how frustrating this must have been for His followers. They sensed that Jesus was leaving, but they were trying to align what He was saying with their ideas for the future.

They questioned His words because they couldn’t understand them. 

In the same way, we can also be quick to try to find solutions to our problems when we’re worried. We can let our understanding of current events cloud our thinking and influence our conversations with God. But God’s purposes are beyond what we can see and understand. 

When Jesus told the disciples to be at peace and not worry, Jesus saw beyond the cross—He saw His resurrection, His return to heaven, and the arrival of God’s Holy Spirit.

In the same way, He sees beyond our situations. 

Because we live in an imperfect world, we will experience disappointments and hardships—but because we serve a good God, He sees beyond the bad things we go through. He sees our future filled with hope.

Jesus told His disciples to be at peace because He wanted them to trust in Him. Similarly, God wants us to be at peace in every situation as we trust Him to work things out for our good and His glory. 

So take some time today to reflect on some of the situations that are causing you to worry. Then, take a moment to tell God that you trust Him with each of these circumstances. Imagine handing Him each concern, and allow Him to hand you His peace in return.

My Thoughts

My latest visit to MD has been one filled with worries and stressed. It has been very cold here and our room, the one for guests, is in the basement. We have a space heater here, the basement is finished and furnished well, but it is cold here when the weather is cold. It was in the teens here all week, so, that space heater ran a lot, like almost constantly. It’s dry heat so I kept waking up with a headache. Then my blood pressure started rising. I tried to think of other things, scripture verses, praise songs, to distract me from the fact that my BP was higher each day, starting on Wednesday. When it went up to 178/110 and then to 198/108 I asked my husband to take me to the ER. I had tried unsuccessfully to get advice from my cardiologist in VA, but he never responded. His nurse told me to drink more water. I was already drinking 5-6 glasses a day, but I increased it, to no avail. Anyway, to make a long story short, I was treated in the ER for Hypertensive Urgent and then a migraine. My BP when I got there was over 200, concerning for me as a stroke survivor. The doctor ordered medication in my IV that brought the pressure down, then it bounced around a bit and my headache was worse. So, the doctor decided I had a migraine. She said the migraine may have caused the BP or the BP caused the migraine, but her next step was to give me meds for a migraine. That seemed to work well, my BP was more or less stable, so a little after midnight, she discharged me and my husband brought me home to our son’s house to rest. I was thankful to be in bed and able to sleep without the constant hospital noises and lights. I am very thankful for a friend who was praying for me and sent me several scriptures to meditate on while I was feeling so bad. One of them was the verse in the devotional above. Another was the same thought was Psalm 94:19: “When anxiety was great within me, your consolation brought me joy.” I kept telling myself that God was surrounding me, and once again, He came through for me. I was disturbed with my husband’s attitude. He told me just to take deep breaths and not think about my BP numbers and I would be fine. When I asked him to please pray with me, he didn’t. He was distracted with talking to our daughter-in-law’s parents who were also here. Anyway, I was distraught that he wouldn’t pray, so I contacted our daughter to pray and she put me on a prayer chain. That didn’t help the disappointment that I felt with my husband, so I am sure that didn’t help my stress either. I would like to thank all of you who took time to pray for me and especially praise be to God our Father who never left me.

In news about Dave, for whom I also asked for prayer: he is still in the hospital and has a lot of what his wife is calling “gunk” around his lungs. He is somewhat depressed because they first told him he would go home on Sunday and now they have moved it to Friday, so he has another week in the hospital. He is very ill and continues to need your prayers. He is having a front chest tube inserted today, so please pray specifically that procedure goes well.

Thank you all for your faithfulness and concern. You are friends, even though you are online, and I appreciate each of you. May God’s peace surround you all.

Imitating God

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I used to watch the people that I admired closely so that I could be more like them. One particular person comes to mind immediately. My high school Spanish teacher was Sra. Mary Smith. She was my teacher for four years and I learned some important lessons by watching her. I learned to look for the good things students were doing and praising them for that before I offered any criticism or instruction. I learned to smile no matter how challenging a day was, with a smile that I hoped others would see sparkling from my eyes. And I learned that the louder students got, the softer I should speak. Those were important lessons for me to learn, especially since Sra. Smith is the teacher who encouraged me to study languages and I became a Spanish teacher for over thirty years myself.

These days my focus is more about wanting to be more Christ-like, so I am learning to imitate God. How do I do that?

I try to do good for others, as much as I can. I want other people to see proof that God lives inside me. I may be the only representative of God they see that day. Children imitate what they see and hear. Go to a grocery store, for example, and listen to the words children say. If a bunch of expletives come out of a small child’s mouth, it is imitation of what they have heard. The child needs to be corrected (not by a stranger, of course), but the behavior doesn’t change unless the source that they are imitating changes. Whether they are imitating words from the TV or from the parents, they are saying what they have heard repeatedly.

As Christians we are being trained daily to speak and act as the Father does. The only way to do that is to spend time with Him, praying, worshipping and reading and studying His Word. We don’t become more like Christ by watching TV or (alas!) by reading books that are not the Bible. My priority time each day is spent with God. Am I succeeding? Well, some days more than others, to be honest. But I am trying every day and God rewards my efforts with a peace that I can’t explain and by answering prayers that may seem small to others, but they are big to me because they show how faithful to details God is if we are watching for His hand at work in our lives.

My prayer for each of my readers is that you will strive to imitate Christ because even if we are not aware of it, others are watching us and may want to be more like us. Let’s be the good example for them to follow and let’s lead them to be more like Christ, not more like our worldly selves.

Rest and Refuel

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From the YouVersion Bible App, Daily Refresh

Called to Contentment

Observing Sabbath-rest allows us to step into the same rhythm God established in creating the world. Scripture tells us when God rested from His work, it was because His work was complete (Genesis 2:1). God took joy in His accomplishment. 

In Hebrews 4:10, the writer draws a parallel between God’s rest and ours: “for anyone who enters God’s rest also rests from their works, just as God did from his.” We’re invited to delight in His presence and share in God’s divine contentment.

This rest isn’t about taking a break from good works. It’s about surrendering the need to control by trusting in the completeness of God’s work. Our “rest” releases us from the burden of proving ourselves good enough to earn His love and approval. These things have been secured through Jesus’ finished work on the cross. When we step into this rhythm of rest we can find contentment that spills over into every part of our lives.

Is God calling you to stop trying to do everything on your own and instead find peace in Jesus’ finished work on the cross?

Lay down your burdens, not out of laziness, but surrender. Believe that the One who made the world also takes care of you.

My Thoughts

I really needed today’s devotional today and hope that it speaks to your heart, too. The part that spoke to me the most is above and I changed the print to make it stand out. All my life, I have struggled to be accepted, to be good enough to win approval. First from my parents, then from my friends and then various administrators for whom I taught. Once I accepted the Lord, I knew in my mind that He had accepted me just as I was, but I still had difficulty getting this truth into my heart. I had gone through years of not being good enough. My mom told me she never wanted me, called me ugly and told me I had to go to college since no one would ever want to marry me. My father abandoned me and sought drugs as his source of comfort. My friends were good while they lasted, but we kept moving to new places so I never really got close to anyone until we moved to Virginia. And my bosses gave infrequent kudos and little appreciation. I found that no one could demand the same perfectionism that I demanded of myself. Then, Jesus stepped into my life and I could breathe for the first time the clean air of complete love and acceptance. I didn’t have to get good grades, be a stellar employee or do a lot of favors to win approval. I already had it. Today’s devotional is a reminder to me of how far I have come from the child who was not loved to the child of the King who is loved eternally. God is good and wants us to rest in Him and be totally content with who He made us to be.