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I have a tendency to magnify the bad things that happen instead of focusing on the blessings. When I started choking and coughing so hard yesterday that I could not attend church for the second week in a row, first I was discouraged. Then, I spent time with God and was thankful that our church streams the 9:30 service, so I was able to join them in worship and listen to the pastor’s message as if I were there. The Lord calmed my spirit so that I could spend time focused on Him instead of on my coughing. I wish I could report that the coughing spasms miraculously went away, but they didn’t. Paul had his thorn in the flesh and I have asthma, which makes it harder for me to breathe when I get sick. I have learned from experience that the condition is exacerbated when I am anxious or upset, so staying calm is a must for me since I like breathing. I have learned and I am still learning not to focus on my gasping breaths but to focus on the One who gave me the breath of life to begin with and to be thankful for each breath I can take.

The key to breathing for me is to focus on the Lord, not on the problem. When I focus on Him, just like Peter walking on water, I can continue to walk and not sink. It’s when I take my eyes off the Lord that I begin to panic and my breath comes in short gasps. I am blessed to report that the panicking is less frequent and the thankfulness for each breath is more common. I am a little dismayed that I have been sick for two weeks so far, a period of time that is longer than usual, particularly after I have started antibiotics and a steroid dose pack. But I am waiting for God to heal me; the doctors help, the medicines help, but God does the healing. Meanwhile, I am working on staying calm in order to keep my focus where it belongs.

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