From YouVersion Devotional, “In a Boat in the Middle of a Lake”, Day 3

When Jesus first called some of the disciples, they were casting their fishing nets into the water. They were mending nets on the shore. Dry ground was underneath their feet. When Jesus said, “Come follow me,” they followed. “I will make you fishers of men,” he told them. We would imagine following Jesus sounded fun. Exciting and full of adventure. It probably seemed like a great work, a work of God, they were signing up for. A lot like when we first believed. We gladly received God’s love. We felt his presence. He gave us new identities as sons and daughters. We could see his goodness and faithfulness. Like those first disciples, early in the journey we, too, were excited.

Or maybe Jesus calling the disciples was like when God first called you to a new ministry, a new job, or a new season in life. And yet this journey of following Jesus is full of surprises, isn’t it? The path is not always straight. The terrain is not always smooth. Sometimes there is water. And storms. Interruptions, we might say.

But we discover Jesus not only wants to work through us but needs to work in us. And this is no secondary work of lesser importance. He doesn’t just want to get us from one side of the lake to the other. He uses the “middle.”

The storm we are facing is never a threat to God’s work; it is often a tool for God’s work. Suffering might feel like an interruption to us, but it is instrumental to Jesus.

Undoubtedly, suffering was not God’s plan. He hates evil. All of the sickness, pain, disease, loss, and death we experience is the result of Adam and Eve’s first sin (Gen. 3). Things are not the way they once were in God’s original creation. And they are not what they will one day be when Jesus renews all things and does away with the messiness and brokenness and sin we are all living with. But God can and does use suffering in this life for his redemptive purposes.

Note that I added the emphasis.

My Thoughts

Well, I can and do believe that God can and does use our suffering as a tool. I don’t think He causes it, but He can use it to teach us and draw us closer to Him. What I have difficulty with is “rejoicing in my suffering.” I am more likely to be whining a little bit, praying a lot and hoping that it will all be over soon. But, if I see things the way God sees them, then I am seeing the end result, that I will be better off after having gone through whatever pain it is I am suffering. I want my character to be more like that of Jesus and if the only way to get there is suffering, then, I’m okay with that. Not thrilled, mind you, but I can submit to it and wait for God to strengthen me and make me a better person from it.

My father was a mechanic, and he was all about having his tools in the right place for him to be able to access them quickly and use them. He didn’t use them to make the car break down more. He was using those tools to repair the car and to make it run better. That is what God is doing every time I go through trials or suffering. He is helping me to run the race to the end better.

Right now, I have another infection. Sinus, bronchitis? I don’t know what I have right now but I know I am using my inhalers, nebulizer and other OTC meds until I can be checked by the doctor on Monday and hopefully get the antibiotics I need to fight it off. Meanwhile, I am a little discouraged, just to be honest. I was giving thanks that I had made it through the month of October without getting sick and then…bam! Sneezing, coughing and wheezing. Not fun, but it’s part of my life since I was born with asthma. Can God heal me? Yes, I know He can. But that doesn’t seem to be His plan for me. Like Paul with his thorn, I just have to accept it and do the best I can living with it.

Meanwhile, I am praying that I will learn what God wants me to learn and be a good witness to others about His faithfulness and loving care. The tools He uses are to make me a better person, not to destroy me. I truly believe that, and I hope that you do, too.