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As usual, this devotional spoke to me right where I most need it. This last week has thrown me for a loop, and not in a good way. Hearing that Isaac likely had cancer last month, well, to be honest, I handled that news pretty well. I prayed and trusted God to take care of him. After all, the surgeon was confident that they could remove it all and he could go on with his life. Then, the surgery happened. Same reaction, same report from the surgeon. Unfortunately, the news at the follow up was not all sunshine and flowers. In fact, our family is still reeling over the report that Isaac has to have bloodwork to check for the cancer spreading into his circulatory system, he is getting a CT scan to see if it has spread to other parts of his body and then he is getting a referral to an oncologist and going to talk to that specialist about chemotherapy. Wait! What just happened? My mind nor my heart can keep up with the changes. From, “It’s all fine” to “You need to undergo treatment for aggressive cancer.” All at the ripe old age of twenty-two. So, I have gone through some real rebellion and pouting this week. Yes, I confess. I got mad at God, but He is big enough to take it and loves me enough to understand it. I ranted and raved at the unfairness of it! I told God that I would rather the growth that they found and removed in me be cancer than that my beloved grandson be stricken in such a way. “Unfair,” I cried. And God patiently waited for me to calm down so he could speak to me. This devotional was one way He spoke to my anxious heart. Things are not better physically, but I am calmer and more willing to listen to God’s Spirit speak words of comfort and encouragement to me. Am I happy about everything? No, of course not. Do I understand why this is happening? No, of course not. But I am CHOOSING to trust God in spite of my feelings and the circumstances and trusting that God will come through and fulfill His will for Isaac, even in the middle of bad news that keeps getting worse. God says to fear Him. That means to me that I need to let Him be God and I will just be the loving Nanna, standing by and praying, and crying some, too, of course.

By the way, I do have a prayer request/favor to ask of you, my readers. If you or anyone you know has the capability of videotaping the eclipse next week and sending me a copy, I would be very grateful. Isaac and his dad planned for two years to go to northern PA (where my daughter lives) and see the eclipse. But because of his new health problems and medical appointments, they can’t go. I just want something to give to Isaac so he can see the miracles of God in the heavens and believe that same God is working in his life. He can’t even see the 85% eclipse in VA because he has an appointment at that time to get a referral for an oncologist. If you can help, thank you in advance. If you cannot help, would you please remember to pray? God bless you.