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Depend on Jesus Daily

On By vickleaIn Scripture3 Comments

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I don’t know about you, but I have a large streak of independence in me. I have been that way all my life, but especially after I was left alone in a new place while my husband was deployed with the military. I had to learn to navigate myself and the children to the places we needed to go, take care of repairs of cars and the apartment, discipline the children and generally manage everything alone. But I knew, even when I was feeling lonely, that God was with me. I leaned into Him for strength to keep going when I was pregnant and alone. I cried out to Him when I was afraid because there were a boatload of mice in our new apartment. I reached out to Him when we had needs that I just could not meet alone, like getting to the hospital and giving birth. God always met me right where I was, even though I continually declared my independence, God knew that I didn’t mean that I didn’t need Him…He knew I did and He always hovered nearby so that when I reached the end of my rope and couldn’t hang on anymore, He reached out and grasped my hand firmly in His and led me to a safe and quiet place. I learned through those experiences that Jesus is a dependable ally and I can rest in Him when all of the world around me seems to be chaotic and too demanding. I learned to give to Him my resentment about moving again and being left alone. He gave me the ability to forgive and to keep on being the best wife, mother and teacher I could be in each new place. My branch had to keep moving due to circumstances beyond my control, but I found out that the vine moved with me, already deeply rooted in my heart and life so that I knew just who to turn to when I was overwhelmed. God always provided a church family, new friends, a job and the one time I needed it a good neighbor willing to take me to the hospital in the middle of the night and stay with me there until I gave birth the next morning. God is good, and I am thankful to be a dependent branch.

Dependent or Independent?

On By vickleaIn Scripture2 Comments

For all the years that my husband was in the military, I was known as a dependent. At first, I resented the terminology, saying vocally and emphatically, that I was not really dependent on anyone because I could take care of myself just fine, thank you. After all, I had graduated with honors and had a teaching job and career in front of me. But, for the purposes of the military, I was a dependent. And you know what? I learned that it wasn’t such a bad thing. My husband’s status as active duty got me into the commissary to shop for groceries, the exchange to shop for other things, the Officers’ Club for luncheons and housing on the base at a lower cost and at a convenient location. So, maybe being a dependent wasn’t so bad.

I have since been schooled regularly by the Lord about the necessity of my losing my independent streak and being willing to submit myself to Him. Unless I am dependent on Him, I can’t grow, learn and teach others.

No matter what I try to do on my own, it really doesn’t work out well unless I first invite the Lord to be the leader. He is the chief everything…He is the one who gives me my identity, just as my husband provided my military ID for me that is still available for me to use today as a spouse of a retiree. My entire being is wrapped up in who I am in Jesus. I am independent in my choices because He lets me make them, even when I make bad ones. But He is also always there to help me out of the situations I get myself into because of those wrong choices and to help me back onto the path that I was supposed to take all along.

When I admit that I can’t do anything all alone, then Jesus steps in and it is His power that works in me to complete the task that He has given me to do. Sometimes I need His help and intervention more than others, but I am always thankful that I know that He is right there, ready to offer assistance, guidance and strength.

So, dependent or independent? I choose to be dependent on the Lord Jesus, grafted into His vine so that I can produce quality fruit for Him. It’s nice to let go of the wheel and know that Jesus is steering me in the right direction as I depend on Him to take me safely to my final destination!