Windows of Glory

This morning during my devotional, a prayer came up on my feed. I honestly cannot remember if I wrote it or if the Bible App wrote it and I saved it, but it is so appropriate for me right now that I wanted to share part of it.

Basically, it says that the weaknesses we have can be windows for God’s glory to shine through. Not a closed door to keep God and others out, but a window to let others see God’s glory through you.

The SON shines through us and reflects God’s glory to others, if we will let it.

We can agree that life is hard and sometimes we feel that we cannot take one more challenge. But God says we can be strong in the power of His might, for it is in our weakness that His power shines through, His glory.

This has been a tough week for me physically. Last week, I saw my primary care doctor after waiting over three weeks for an appointment. Having been sick and coughing since the end of May, I wanted my “quarterback” who is the overseer of all of my specialists to get on the field and help figure out what is going on with me. He listened to all that I has been happening and ordered a specific blood test. His office called me the next day with the results. I have congestive heart failure. Not an imminent death sentence, but it does mean more meds and a lot of monitoring. I saw my cardiologist on Monday and he ordered a repeat test next week as well as an ultrasound in August. My pulmonologist whom I saw on Wednesday changed some meds from inhaler to nebulizer since I can’t take deep breaths to take in the inhaler meds. And today, I see my primary care doctor again for a follow up. The medical professionals are all taking this whole thing seriously, and I am too. At first, I went from scared to devastated to accepting with a sigh and now I am back to “God is with me and I want Him to use this for His glory.” No, I am not like that all the time. Sometimes I cry in frustration because of the swelling that makes it so difficult to walk. Sometimes I get a “why me” attitude and rant. But you know what? God can take my “chip on my shoulder” attitude and use it to teach me and others. My weakness is showing how strong God is because His light shines best in my darkness.

I got a book in the mail yesterday that I didn’t remember ordering, but what a blessing it will be for me! God knew that this is the perfect time for me to start this devotional study.

In the introduction are these words: “You and I need spiritual strength to deal with the difficulties we face, but there’s a problem: Developing that strength doesn’t come easy. …our spiritual muscles grow strongest when they are stretched, put to the test, and pushed beyond what feels good.”

Well, that seems to be what is happening in my life these days. Perhaps your life, too, has been a series of battles (physical, emotional, mental or spiritual). Whatever you are facing, I pray that your life will be a window for God’s glory to shine through. Don’t be a closed door, but an open window so God’s blessings can pour into you and out to others.

Dependent or Independent?

For all the years that my husband was in the military, I was known as a dependent. At first, I resented the terminology, saying vocally and emphatically, that I was not really dependent on anyone because I could take care of myself just fine, thank you. After all, I had graduated with honors and had a teaching job and career in front of me. But, for the purposes of the military, I was a dependent. And you know what? I learned that it wasn’t such a bad thing. My husband’s status as active duty got me into the commissary to shop for groceries, the exchange to shop for other things, the Officers’ Club for luncheons and housing on the base at a lower cost and at a convenient location. So, maybe being a dependent wasn’t so bad.

I have since been schooled regularly by the Lord about the necessity of my losing my independent streak and being willing to submit myself to Him. Unless I am dependent on Him, I can’t grow, learn and teach others.

No matter what I try to do on my own, it really doesn’t work out well unless I first invite the Lord to be the leader. He is the chief everything…He is the one who gives me my identity, just as my husband provided my military ID for me that is still available for me to use today as a spouse of a retiree. My entire being is wrapped up in who I am in Jesus. I am independent in my choices because He lets me make them, even when I make bad ones. But He is also always there to help me out of the situations I get myself into because of those wrong choices and to help me back onto the path that I was supposed to take all along.

When I admit that I can’t do anything all alone, then Jesus steps in and it is His power that works in me to complete the task that He has given me to do. Sometimes I need His help and intervention more than others, but I am always thankful that I know that He is right there, ready to offer assistance, guidance and strength.

So, dependent or independent? I choose to be dependent on the Lord Jesus, grafted into His vine so that I can produce quality fruit for Him. It’s nice to let go of the wheel and know that Jesus is steering me in the right direction as I depend on Him to take me safely to my final destination!

Thankful for the Power of God

The treasure that we carry in our hearts and souls is the message of the Gospel. Only God could have planned the salvation of all via His Only Son and only God could have been willing to see His Son sacrificed on the cross for all mankind. Only God could raise Jesus from the dead, His resurrection pointing the way for us to one day also have eternal life. This is all the power of God. There is nothing I can do to save myself, so the treasure that I have is in this earthen vessel that God created for my soul to inhabit until He calls me home to be with Him forever.

It is only by God’s sacrifice and power that you and I are being made holy. This is an ongoing process, one that will not be finished until we go to be with Him in Heaven. Thus, I thank God for His power that is working on me to help me to be more like Him.

I feel weak a lot spiritually. I mess up and have to go back and confess, repent and apologize to those I have offended. But God’s grace is always sufficient. He shows Himself powerful on our behalf when we are willing to confess that we need Him because we are weak. It’s not a bad thing to admit weakness. The bad thing is not being willing to admit it and ask God for His power to help you through whatever situation it is that requires His power and strength. When we let pride get in the way and like the toddler declare to God, “I can do it myself,” He steps back and lets us try. Let me tell you from experience that my efforts alone do not usually work out for me; it is only when I acknowledge that I need help from a Higher Power that I can receive the assistance that God has been able and ready to offer all along.

May you be blessed with the knowledge of God’s power and His loving kindness that wants to help you in all situations.