God Is My Refuge


I had a rather rough day yesterday with some disturbing results on medical tests. Nothing terribly major for now. It’s just that my single kidney has lost more of its function, so now I am in stage three. My physician was not very forthcoming on what that means for me, but he did tell me to limit eating foods with potassium since my filtration system isn’t working well right now. That means limiting oranges, potatoes, tomatoes, melons and bananas. I was already on a limited diet because of my stroke (low sodium, low sugar), so this seemed like a heavy blow to me. I cried and mourned the loss of more things I enjoy, but God got hold of me and showed me that He is my refuge. He is my shelter. The absence of certain foods in my life should not totally shake me up. It’s just one more thing to deal with as I age with my numerous medical problems.

I am thankful to be alive. Do I wish that things were different? Of course! But there are worse things. Meanwhile, I am going to see my PCP and talk to her more about this Stage 3 thing and ask about a referral to a different nephrologist. This is the first time I had seen this doctor although I did have three virtual visits with him via the phone. On one of those calls, he decided that I should be taking a new blood pressure medicine. I filled the prescription and took it and the next morning, my BP was 80/40 and I was very dizzy. So, I called his office and he returned my call, telling me that if I could not tolerate that medication, I would need to see my cardiologist for advice about what to take. I did see my cardio and he changed my meds, telling me that the med the nephrologist had started me on often causes BP to suddenly drop. Hmm. So, after yesterday’s visit and his lack of communication, I’m ready for a change. I was asking questions and he was typing away on the desktop. Since being ignored was not helpful, I think that I should seek medical assistance elsewhere. But I am first and foremost depending on the Great Physician.

I did not sleep well last night. Insomnia has become a regular thing with me, and I usually get about five hours of sleep. Anyway, I awakened this morning with the Scripture that I am fearfully and wonderfully made. God made me, not the physicians. God is taking care of me, not the physicians. The doctors are God’s helpers on earth and some are better helpers than others. That being said, back to the verse above. God alone is my rock, the One on whom I can depend; He is my refuge, the shelter for me when my world seems to be shaking. Everything around me might shake, but God is still the same and He will not allow me to be shaken as long as I am trusting in Him.

I hope that I have not bored you too much with my medical status today. I also hope that you will remember me in your prayers, but mostly I pray for God’s blessing on you and your day. May you fulfill His purpose in your life!

Blessed to be a blessing!

13 thoughts on “God Is My Refuge

  1. Good Morning Vickie….thank you for sharing your medical struggles….it is truly comforting and gives a feeling of “camaraderie” to others, such as myself who also have faced many medical struggles. I am a 30 year survivor of Stage IV lymphoma, having gone through it at age 30…and have had a multitude of health issues ever since.
    I am so sorry you are having to go through all those different issues…..it can sure be frightening, I know. Thank goodness you know Jesus and have him to hold your hand through all these uncertain and scary events. For me personally, knowing that nothing touches our lives without His permission gives me great comfort, especially at times with health issues.

    I’m going to add you to my personal prayer list. Sending you a big ‘hug’. 🙂

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  2. Dear Vickie, God bless you. What encouraging words you have written. What a living testimony you are being to others as you walk through your trials. My prayer for you is your continued reliance upon our Father. What a wonderful attitude of courage and faith you have!!
    Father, have mercy on Vickie as she continues her journey in Christ Jesus Your Son. Amen.
    Bless you!

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  3. Vickie, thanks for sharing your situation. I have reading much about prayer, and we are encouraged to pray for others. Keeping you in pray as you seek further help. May the Great Physician guide the actions of your earthly physicians.

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  4. I just said a prayer for you. I have also had a few ‘medical things’ recently, so I can relate to what you’re feeling.
    But something else you said got me… “I was asking questions and he was typing away on the desktop. Since being ignored was not helpful…” Oh dear, I saw a picture in my mind’s eye of me doing this to God. I spend so much time on my computer (work), my laptop (blog), and my phone (photos, kids, grandkids, parents) that I fear He must feel the same way when He is communicating with me as you did when you were communicating with that doc. Thanks for that vivid picture. Even if it wasn’t exactly your intended message, God used your blog to speak right into my heart today.

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